I blew it

I really blew it this time.
How could I have done such a thing?
You have something or someone so special and precious and I just threw it away.
It doesn't help that I was lacking in sleep.
What can I do though?
I feel like such an idiot.
I just want to run away from myself.
Who do I think I am?
Who have I become?

I heard a joke once that was possibly the most ironic joke of all time, it goes:
"What ship never sinks? Friendship." Ya, right.
Friendship is such a precarious thing. Hope is a precarious thing. Love is a precarious thing. What have I done. I think they are all worth it though.

I'll have you know that I am sorry.
Being driven by impulses is a dangerous road to go down.
I just don't know anymore.
I think I'm ADD.
Goodbye and Good  night.

Daniel

Do any of you have those people who you just love so much that every time you think of them it brings tears to your eyes? In less than 5 months my brother Daniel will come home from his mission. I can't sufficiently describe the bond between my brother Daniel. I love him so much. Every time I think of him, I just remember how much I remember him. There is a picture of him on Facebook with another one of my heroes and you can see the pure joy on his face. Well, when we die and go to heaven that smile will be on Daniel's face always. I can't wait for the day when I get to see him again. He truly is my hero.
      But also, there is my little brother David. He is becoming a man, and I am so proud of him. When I think of how proud I am of him, it brings tears to my eyes. The bond us three brothers share is stronger than anything else on this earth, because it is eternal. If anyone ever asked me does it bug me having 4 brothers I would tell them, 'HECK NO!!!!!!' I'm so grateful for all my brothers, and tonight I just can't wait for the day we are reunited. Daniel, I love you so much. Matthew, I respect you so much. Mark, I care about you so much. David, I'm so proud of you. You'll never know though. Brothers, all I've ever wanted is for you to be proud of me, especially David and Daniel. One day I will make you proud of me.
       Love,
           Gregory Joseph Rellaford