I blew it

I really blew it this time.
How could I have done such a thing?
You have something or someone so special and precious and I just threw it away.
It doesn't help that I was lacking in sleep.
What can I do though?
I feel like such an idiot.
I just want to run away from myself.
Who do I think I am?
Who have I become?

I heard a joke once that was possibly the most ironic joke of all time, it goes:
"What ship never sinks? Friendship." Ya, right.
Friendship is such a precarious thing. Hope is a precarious thing. Love is a precarious thing. What have I done. I think they are all worth it though.

I'll have you know that I am sorry.
Being driven by impulses is a dangerous road to go down.
I just don't know anymore.
I think I'm ADD.
Goodbye and Good  night.