Standing Up Again

Standing Up Again - Written Sophomore Year

I can't go on
I can't even see the sun
There is no one to light the way,
for the lantern burned out long ago.

I can't feel
the pain that was so prevalent
It has begun to become a numb hole
that may never again be full.

What is the point of friends?
They never understand.
Everything I say is nothing to them.
They only care about their preconceived judgements.

It isn't fair
They always told me that was the way
All the time I took their spoon fed criticism.
I let them break me down to a nothingless shell of empty pain.

I'm not going to take it any more.
This is my life to lead.
This is my destiny to maniuplate
Whatever you say, doesn't have to be true if I don't let it.

I'm standing up again alone
Don't even try to touch me.
I'm never going to get pushed down again.
I'm standing up again.