Sunday, February 27, 2011

The son becomes the father, and the father, the son.

"You will travel far my little Kal-El. But we will never leave you. Even in the face of our deaths. You will make my strength your own. You will see my life through your eyes as your life will be seen through mine. The son becomes the father, and the father, the - The son." - Jor-El, Superman Returns
These are the beginning lines of Superman returns when Jor-El, the father of Superman speaks to him, but also they are the last words of the movie as Superman speaks to his son these same words, "as the son becomes the father, so the father, becomes the son." I was thinking today that I am really excited to be a Dad. I know that maybe it is a weird desire to most teenage guys, but I can't wait for the day.
   

I am so excited to have my own cute little boy. I can almost picture his face right now. I can imagine the days with my little girl with her giant smile and cute eyes looking up at me as we run into the ocean together. I can imagine the summer afternoons of running through the sprinklers, playing tag in the park, staring at the clouds, the lunches in the sun, and the times where I twirl my kids around like airplanes.

I can see the winter mornings of Christmas, the snow men we'll build, the sledding  hills, the Thanksgiving Dinners at Grandma's, the family prayers, the goodnight kisses, the Lego building contests, sword fights, and the constant laughter every day as we tickle each other and play around like boys.

Even though I've only mentioned the good times, I'm so excited for the less upbeat times too. I'm excited for the times, when we go on walks, when we do homework, when we have family scripture study, when we clean the room, and for the opportunities when my kids are being bums for me to grow and prove myself to my heavenly father.
I'm not sure where this excitement comes from. Maybe it is from my younger years and relieving them. Maybe it is my excitement to get married and have a family. Maybe it's because I absolutely love children. Maybe it is because I can't wait for the day when I will get to look into the eyes of my wife and see the face of my daughter or my son and know that we are doing what the Lord would have us do. All I can say is that I'm excited to be a dad and a husband for my kids and my future wife. I can't help but wonder if my parents felt the same way before they had us.


And then, there will be a day when they grow up and become men and women, and I get to see them go on mission, to learn and grow as teenagers, to get married, and to have kids of their own. That will be a great day, but I think I'll like them as kids a little bit more, who knows, but I do know one thing. I will be so proud of my kids.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Gravity Hurts

 Gravity Hurts

Tension is risin'
Gravity hurts
Everythin's fallin' apart
Choosin' the right side
Choosin' our faith
Choosin' is what we must do
Everyone's countin' on you

For freedom we rise
Learn to fly, reach the sky
Legend will carry you thousands of miles
Take a stand, hold the land
Make sure that everyone's ready to win
Find the speed, all you need
Team up for battle we fly
Fly

We fly
Gravity hurts


Creatures keep comin'
Reachin' within
Stealthy they climb from the dark
Yeah
Searchin' for wisdom
Searchin' for truth
Show us the things you can do
Maybe it's all up to you, yeah

For freedom we rise
Learn to fly, reach the sky
Legend will carry you thousands of miles
Take a stand, hold the land
Make sure that everyone's ready to win
Find the speed, all you need
Team up for battle we fly
Fly


For freedom we rise
Learn to fly, reach the sky
Legend will carry you thousands of miles
Take a stand, hold the land
Make sure that everyone's ready to win
Find the speed, all you need
Team up for battle

For freedom we rise
Learn to fly, reach the sky
Legend will carry you thousands of miles
Take a stand, hold the land
Make sure that everyone's ready to win
Find the speed, all you need
Team up for battle we fly
Fly

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BYU

Congratulations to all those who made BYU!!!!! I'm proud of you guys. And those that didn't, I'm proud of you too, because as I've realized myself, the Lord wants us in other places.
I have to admit, I've been silently wishing for days that somehow BYU had accidentally mailed me the wrong letter 3 months ago and that I would open up my email 5 minutes ago and find out that I was accepted, but alas, I'm not. I can only guess that the Lord has a better purpose for me at UVU. I've begun to hear UVU success stories. So even though when I tell people I'm going to UVHigh and they look down upon me, I can at least be excited that I get to take some Auto  Mechanics classes, which I've always wanted to do, and I get to go to school with at least one of my brothers. I'm trying to stay positive as always, but we'll see where this goes. Also, one more good thing about UVU is it's a shorter bus ride every morning, and I will have much easier classes than BYU. I guess we'll see though. Good luck to all wherever you are headed.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Coop-dawg

On Saturday February 12, 2011 at approximately 10 AM, we got a new dog. His name is Cooper. When I came home from setting up Sadies, I got to meet him for the first time. I was so excited when I saw him for the first time. I've always wanted a Husky-like dog and I finally got one. When I came home I was informed that he had crawled under the fence and eaten one of my neighbors chickens. As my dad said, "He really likes birds."  Anyway, here are some pictures:









In the works . . .

Everyday struggle
What do you do when everyday is a battle?
Who do you be when you're lost in the struggle?

    Can you see me?
Why won't you look at me?
I'm just trying to be me.
Can you not stand to see,
Who I am trying to be?

Stop and think about it
I'm trying to not be offended.
Why is our friendship always rended?
The frequent breaks,
Give me constant heart ache.



What am I doing wrong?
Is it part of this song?

Monday, February 7, 2011

The Faith of the Stripling Warriors and Captain Moroni

47 And again, the Lord has said that: Ye shall defend your families even unto bloodshed. Therefore for this cause were the Nephites contending with the Lamanites, to defend themselves, and their families, and their lands, their country, and their rights, and their religion.
48 And it came to pass that when the men of Moroni saw the fierceness and the anger of the Lamanites, they were about to shrink and flee from them. And Moroni, perceiving their intent, sent forth and inspired their hearts with these thoughts--yea, the thoughts of their lands, their lliberty, yea, their freedom from bondage.
49 And it came to pass that they turned upon the Lamantites, and they cried with one voice unto the Lord their God, for their liberty and their freedom from bondage.
50 And they began to stand against the Lamanites with power; and in that selfsame hour that they cried unto the Lord for their freedom, the Lamanites began to flee before them; and they fled even to the waters of Sidon.
- Alma 43: 47-50


You and I should strive to become like the stripling warriors described in the Book of Mormon, who did “perform every word of command with exactness; yea, and even according to their faith it was done unto them. …
“… And they are strict to remember the Lord their God from day to day; yea, they do observe to keep his statutes, and his judgments, and his commandments continually” (Alma 57:21; 58:40).
- Elder David A. Bednar, Apostle of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, Receive the Holy Ghost.

12 And it came to pass that he rent his coat; and he took a piece thereof, and wrote upon it--In memory of our God, our religion, and freedom, and our peace, our wives, and our children--and he fastened it upon the end of a pole.
21 And it came to pass that when Moroni had proclaimed these words, behold the people cam running together with their armor girded about their loins, rending their garments in token, or as a covenant, that they would not forsake the Lord their God; or, in other words, if they should transgress the commandments of God, or fall into transgression, and be ashamed to take upon them the name of Christ, the Lord should rend them even as they had rent their garments.
- Alma 46: 12, 21

15 And this was their faith, that by so doing God would prosper them in the land, or in other words, if they were faithful in keeping the commandments of God that he would prosper them in the land; yea, warn them to flee, or to prepare for war, according to their danger;
17 Yea, verily, verily I say unto you, if all men had been, and were, and ever would be, like unto Moroni, behold, the very powers of  hell would have been shaken forever; yea, the devil would never have power over the hearts of the children of men.
18 Behold, he was a man like unto Ammon, the son of Mosiah, yea, and even the other sons of Mosiah, yea, and also Alma and his sons, for they were all men of God.
- Alma 48: 15, 17-18

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Lost

"Hey, I used to have a little bit of a plan
Used to, have a concept of where I stand
But that concept slipped right outta my hand
Now, I don't really even know who I am."
- Fort Minor, Believe Me

Have you ever felt lost? Have you ever felt afraid? Have you ever felt like you are doing something wrong? Have you ever felt like you've lost touch with what's important. Well, I think I feel like that right now. I feel like I've been so distanced from the Lord. I used to blog every post about my testimony, now I just complain. What went wrong? Gratitude to him who saved me. That is the difference. I lost touch, but now I'm coming back. I'm remembering what is most important. The Lord blesses me with humility in unexpected ways. Sometimes it'll be a friend ignoring me, others it will just be some great trial until I am sufficiently humbled and I come crawling back to him on my hands and knees begging for forgiveness. I think sometimes I lose sight of what is most important. I forget where I'm going and where I'm from, but the Lord, he puts the signals there and brings me home to him again. That is why I need him. The first step in the repentance process is really just accepting that you've sinned. I admit, I'm lost, so now I can find my way back. What a great blessing the atonement is. Lord, I promise I will be better.

I'm done.

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Saturday, February 5, 2011

Pages - 3 Doors Down

 I was listening to 3 Doors Down new song, and I stumbled upon this one. I think this is a very good description of how some people feel. I think we all feel this way sometimes. I think this is the definition of me Sophomore year. I'm good now, so nobody worry. I just liked this song.

"Pages"

What happens to a man when
He spills his heart on a page and
He watches words flow away then
His feelings lie on the page alone
There waiting
For someone who cares to read them
To open their eyes to see them
To see if they can make his thoughts their own
To find out that maybe your life's not perfect
Maybe it's not worth what he gives away

You can see that this broken soul is bleeding
So you concede your feelings inside yourself
And wander through my heart
Letting you see through me
Now only consumes me
Forget your pain, watch me fall apart

What happens to a soul when
It's trapped inside his emotions
And all of these words he's spoken
They bind him to the life he's left behind
And every new step he takes
He knows that he might not make it
To all of these dreams that he has yet to find

Maybe your life's not perfect
But maybe it's not worth what he gives away
You can see that this broken soul is bleeding
So you concede your feelings inside yourself
And wander through my heart
Letting you see through me
Now only consumes me
Forget your pain and watch me fall apart

You can see that this broken soul is bleeding
So you concede your feelings inside yourself
And wander through my heart
Letting you see through me
Now only consumes me
Forget your pain and watch me fall apart
As i fall apart

Distance

Sometimes I think I can feel and see things that aren't obvious. It can be between a friend and I, or I can see something in someone's eye. It's like there is distance, and I can sense it, but there is nothing I can do to break it. Is it my fault? What did I do wrong? Are my first thoughts. So I try harder knocking and sacrificing more of myself to stop this distance, but it remains impenetrable and I become emptier and emptier. My heart longs for this separation to go away. Still nothing I can do can stop it, but maybe I can say something. What good is it going to do though. It's in the other person's hands. It's like those dreams where you're running as fast as you can and you still can't reach the goal, or you try with all the effort that you can possibly give to move faster, but time has slowed down on your body and you see your impending doom. No matter what I do, she still walks around the corner leaving me crying on my knees. Leaving me feeling empty and abandoned.