Distance

Sometimes I think I can feel and see things that aren't obvious. It can be between a friend and I, or I can see something in someone's eye. It's like there is distance, and I can sense it, but there is nothing I can do to break it. Is it my fault? What did I do wrong? Are my first thoughts. So I try harder knocking and sacrificing more of myself to stop this distance, but it remains impenetrable and I become emptier and emptier. My heart longs for this separation to go away. Still nothing I can do can stop it, but maybe I can say something. What good is it going to do though. It's in the other person's hands. It's like those dreams where you're running as fast as you can and you still can't reach the goal, or you try with all the effort that you can possibly give to move faster, but time has slowed down on your body and you see your impending doom. No matter what I do, she still walks around the corner leaving me crying on my knees. Leaving me feeling empty and abandoned.