"Reflection on Death", "I'll Trust You"

Reflection on Death
At this time I think back
to when I was professedly suicidal
I wonder and ask myself,
Would I have left behind all that I knew?
Would I have left my family in misery?
What would the benefit have been?
What good could I do dead?

I think back and am grateful
That I got to a new life
Where I can be a light, alive
Where I've found myself.
I know who I am and
Who I want to be,
And I want to bless others

I'll Trust You
You tell me that If I want to find myself I have to lose myself
You tell me to put my life down for 2 years
and then resume again.
But I will do it for Thee.

You tell me that If I give it all up
I will find happiness
You tell me if I leave all love behind
I will experience more love than I've ever felt
So I trust you.

I may not have the answers
But I know You are the one
If You ask for my life as a sacrifice
Then I'll humbly say "Thy will be done."
I know You have all the answers
So I'll get on my knees and trust You.

You tell me that You know the way
I'll try to follow
You tell me You have eternal life
and I'll never go hungry
and I believe in Thee

I might falter sometimes
I might mess up the rhymes
But You always show me the way
And give me hope for a new day.
I often sin at times
I can be as sour as limes
But You always know the way
And You save me from the fray.